Back in the Stirrups

Literally.

I am sorry I have been a little distant the last 5 days (comments and posting).  I do appreciate everyone's kind words when I got my first treatment cycle BFN.  I didn't cry.  Don't get me wrong, I was disappointed but it was my FIRST full treatment cycle to even try.  Did I expect to be that lucky? No.  I did cry though on Friday.  Friday, AF showed up on the doorstep as I was sitting at the patio at Cantina Laredo at the Branson Landing (WOW it was a BEAUTIFUL day!).  As I was enjoying my wonderful lunch with good company, I could feel the cramps coming on.  Quick trip to the bathroom and wa la, she arrived. I had a gut feeling that morning and grabbed a tampon as I left the house.  I was pleased to have a 30 day cycle though, not one of those 36-40:).  On my way home, I checked my email in my car (don't worry, I was at a freshly red stop light).  There was an email from the crazy SIL.  The subject line was "Baby Carden Question Mark!!!"  Yes, it was an ultrasound pic.  I did not open it to view, I just deleted it.  I think if it was any other day, I would have been o.k.  but just not the day AF showed up to prove to me my body failed me yet once again.  I lost it. 

So today, I had an appt. with Amy, the Nurse Practitioner and my baseline u/s.  I have a 1.1 cm cyst on my right ovary, and a 1.4 cm on my left ovary.  When I met with Amy, she advised me that they want to get rid of the residual cysts before starting the cycle. I was kind of confused b/c Amy started the last cycle with a 1.6 cm cyst.  I thought I remember her saying that anything under 1.8cm, they will go ahead with treatment.  I didn't say anything, took my sample birth control and left the office.  I didn't come to the office today with high expectations b/c of  the 6 cm cyst back in January. 

Right when I got back to the office and sat down, my phone was ringing- it was Dr. S. office.  It was Amy.  We are going to start this cycle!! She talked with Dr. S and he said anything under 2.00 cm, he feels comfortable with treatment.  So I ran to the pharmacy to pick up my Clomid and will pick up my Bravelle tomorrow from the Dr. office.  We are doing the same regimen, 5 days 50mg Clomid and 2 days Bravelle. 

I have an appt. next Wednesday- hopefully I have as many follicles as last time!!!